the mending process

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

why do you keep going back-forth every time i try to let you go? pathetic one. as if i dont own a single life that i deserved before. it is too deep to get off and too narrow to get up. whatever.it is sickening me and i hate it when i have to admit that your memory is still here. i dont even have much time to fall for you and now i have no idea why did i keep thinking of you. there must be something wrong with my head then. 

i want to grow up. like others. the only thing i keep asking until now. and i keep asking for it and praying for it to come soon. because i dont think i have much time left for me. that's all im asking for ... 

babai :/